New Day, New Blog
I started blogging in 1997, I think. I “coded” the site with FrontPage, and hosted it on a Linux server, in my house, on a DSL line, with the FrontPage extensions for Apache. Then I wrote an actual, custom blog engine in PHP. Then I recoded it in Ruby on Rails. Then I converted the site to WordPress. Each time, I carefully rolled all my content forward to the new platform.
Then I realized that my opinions and writing style were getting me in trouble. A couple of people contacted me for naming them specifically, so I redacted all names. I believe my public opinions lost me a job opportunity, so I heavily redacted my political and religious views. Unsatisfied that I couldn’t “be myself,” I just took it all down, and this URL sat empty. I kept poking at it, unfiltered and unrestrained, on an internal server at my house for awhile, but then I finally just backed it up and took it down.
As I write this, it’s August of 2019. For several years now, I’ve struggled with the idea of having a blog at all. My problem was that, if I couldn’t do it the way I wanted to, I didn’t want to do it at all. I don’t want to compromise my opinion by being politically correct, and I don’t want to put up empty pablum.
But then, things changed. I’ve matured, both in my thinking, and in my approach. My opinions have softened on many issues. I think that’s mostly due to just growing older, experiencing more “life,” and mellowing out a little. I also now realize that it’s possible to make a point without necessarily being a highly-opinionated jerk about it. I know this isn’t revelatory to most people, but it’s taken me many, many years to figure out.
So I’m starting over. I may “port” over some of the content from my old site, but the opinion has got to start fresh. At 50, I’m just not the same person I was at 25, and it’s not fair to either one of us to try to bring that person forward in time, and present him as me now.